OVERTHINKING

 I never knew I was a victim of overthinking until I I started feeling numb and my heart used to pace so fast just abruptly and I would wake up in the middle of the night just to stare which I do to date.

Let me tell my story.

I grew up in Coast, a city no one would ever wish to miss visiting but fate stroke and that's where reality started becoming a real reality.

I don't know if you know the hustle of waking up in the morning, you look at your mom and you just can't look her twice because of what life has made her to be, you turn to the other side to face your dad and wow what you see is an empty seat.

You in the middle of your teen age and the best feeling ever would always to come back home and be able to hop to both your parents telling them sweet nothings, calling them randomly during the day to just say hi but what you do is a random call everyday to just that soft voice of your mom. There is this other voice at the deeper end of your ears but it's way too far into the clouds.

With this now I grew a bitter heart of always questioning myself why. Why did it have to be me not running in the mall with my dad, why would it just be me that won't be able to express the kind of rough days I had to this hero of mine. Yes I understand moms play the bigger role to always fill that gap and my mom really did her best to always make me feel comfortable.

What we've never understood is that all this leads to overthinking. I know I'm speaking for many voices out there that experience the same.When all this strike learn to get someone you are comfortable with to express yourself and ease that load in your hear. Learn to find a therapist who will take you through every single step of your feeling low untill you feel you are confident to now stand on your own.